Animals have always been an important part of my life. From them I’ve learned how to love unconditionally and cherish the quietest moments in life.
When I adopted Shadow, I was 9 and he was 14. The photo above was taken approximately one year later. This February, he turned 36. He has been a very important part of my life – of me – for 22 years.
Shadow lives on our small hobby farm with my mom and all of our other animals. From earlier posts you may know that the farm is a 7 hour drive from my home. It is currently listed for sale, and my hope is to move my mom and our animals much closer to me as soon as possible. I really need her – all of them – closer.
Yesterday Shadow failed to eat all of his grain, which is quite unusual. Everything else seems normal – he’s grazing, behaving as he should, etc. But it worries me.
He isn’t a young colt anymore, and while we have made sure he has the best food, the warmest winter blanket, and great veterinary care, I know he can’t live forever.
When someone you love is with you for so long, you can take their presence for granted. As I sit here crying, I think of my last visit to the farm and how I could have spent more time with him but didn’t.
Hopefully in the morning I will hear that he ate all of his breakfast and whinnied to be let out into the pasture with his mares.
I will never be ready to lose Shadow, but I hope when I do, it will be at a new, closer farm, where I can sit and spend time with him. Because I’ll always be his girl, and he’ll always be Jessica’s Shadow.