My friends have asked that I express when I need something. So here it goes…
My cancer is progressing, and now I must prepare myself for chemotherapy. But no matter how I try, I feel like no one ‘gets’ what a big deal this is for me. Specifically, I’ve been freaked out about having a port inserted.
I know it’s good to get one. I know it’s a standard procedure. But it’s still very… invasive. I’ve never had anything implanted in my body, and even though it’s a “standard procedure,” it’s a really big deal to me.
I need my feelings validated. I need to hear “yes, that would freak me out too.”
I know chemo will bring its own set of fears, but I’m trying to take this one step at a time. And I just need to know that anyone in my position would be scared too.